Hey wassup hello,
I'll start off with a little bit of an update of my life.. I just moved to Memphis, TN on Sunday to be the assistant field hockey coach at Rhodes College! I'm super pumped to be back in the game!
My life has been kind of all over the place the past couple months, but I got to see a lot of cool things and do a lot of things I never imagined I would!
(These are pictures from one of my new favorite parks in Mempis!)
But to turn the attention to the big Man (God), He has blessed me with so many opportunities and put me in so many positions to honor and glorify Him this summer. I'll be the first to admit that I wasn't always the best at it and it took me some time to give the glory to God, and hand over control of the situation to Him, but I am starting to see the INCREDIBLE ways in which He has blessed me since leaving UMass.
To start, moving to Tennessee has opened my eyes to the way people live in other parts of the country. I've come to realize how truly blessed I am to have a great (Isenberg) education. Not everyone gets to go to college and learn and grow as a person. AND, I got to do it all while playing a sport I LOVE, all by the grace of God.
I am currently at a job that I absolutely love and I see Gods hand in it (,even though I'm only a week in).
Prior to graduating, I remember walking into my coaches office after the season was over and telling her I didn't know what I was going to do know that the game I loved was over, thankfully, God knew. I didn't trust that He knew, but He knew alright!
After thinking about how He led me to Memphis, it's funny to think that I don't or didn't have faith in the plans He has for me. But it's not always easy. The world tells us that we are in control of our destiny and we can do anything we set our minds to. Although, I don't completely disagree, when I listen to a God and go where He's leading me I find joy and peace. I know that He has me where I am for His plan which is so much greater than just my own earthly satisfaction.
So that's where I was going with this blog post, I realized a couple minutes ago how much I was trying to please myself and trying so hard to be better than everyone else and prove that to people– but somehow I end up getting in the way of that, I get cocky and I am never fully satisfied with my performance, but in God and through Jesus I am whole. I don't have to worry about my performance as long as I am doing my best for His glory; that's all He wants from me. He's not asking me to be perfect. Do I want to be perfect? Yes! But I know that I will never reach perfection until I am in Heaven with Him.
I encourage all of you to find peace and joy in that Jesus loves YOU and know that YOU are made perfect in Him.